Monday, June 3, 2013

ranting post


This word has been with me since starting of the year and it sucks big time.
It is making my life progressing in an aimless way, making my studies going haywire, and nearly made me single again.. =/

Yeah. When emo-ing, people just tend to snap at everybody alot, even with best friends.
But if you are really best friends, no matter how he/she snapped at you, you will still smile at them when they finally come to their senses and apologize to you. If he/she got tired of you, well you need to ponder on yourself.. It might be you crossing the line already, and you need to get a grip on yourself.

A good quote, which is sad, but true. You have to make the best out of your life YOURSELF. Learnt it the hard way.


Am suddenly lost for words.. Too many things have been in my mind lately, and its bursting.. Feels the need to release but dont know how, and this is the most torturing part.
Feel like crying, but its useless..
Exams around the corner, but still cant focus on studies.. The truth is, this semester, have been fooling around way overboard and now I wish I can rewind time and make this semester more useful, and actually learn something..
Maybe the pressure of getting All Pass is affecting me.. Been abit too worried about it, until the mood to really study, to embrace the true meaning of study is gone..
It's just study for exam, study for pass, study to graduate and get my ass outta here..

And about the future, am so confused.. I have to search for jobs already.. Pressure from mum is just too much to handle now.. Don't even know what's the next step to take..
Is my world falling apart again? I know I can stand up again, but when is it? Do I need to sink lower than the last one, only to have the strength to pull myself up again?
Am getting addicted to the loser feeling and don't even care to try to straighten things out..

I wish boyfie is here.. He'll be able to maybe "slap" me awake? haha.. He's struggling on the other side of the world too.. Both of us falling together.. Don't even know how to console each other when we are in the same shit together.. -_- ahh well, this is life right? At least sometimes, only sometimes, we can understand fully how each other is feeling. 

Haha.. this post is going nowhere...
Well, it suits the post title aint it?


Anyway, gotta go 'save' my life now. 
Probably gonna laugh my future self off when I read this post again. ^o^

Monday, September 3, 2012

The random things of the day

Hi folks, I'm back again! =D

Actually blogging for me is just a thing I will only think of as the last resort of boredness =/

So if you realised, I only blog during holidays or the starting of my semester, just because I'm too laaaazzzzzzzyyyy to write random things.. xD

But today I just feel like blogging, and I wouldn't let my inspiration go to waste right?

Just now on the way to Mcdonald's to drive-tru some criss-cut fries, I saw 2 things that captured my attention.

1st one, is a garden decoration.
It was green in colour, some times ago... But now all the leaves died and became brown in colour..
I guess the house owner doesn't want to decoration anymore.. LOL..
If I'm not mistaken, this deco is a shape of a flamingo xD

Then I passed by a neighbourhood with some luxurious house. There's one house I loved to design and colour...
Nice right? *kyaaa-*

I hope one day I'm rich enough to make my future house looks just like that.. =D

And oh on the end note..
Yes! Mcdonald's criss-cut fries is back! For criss-cut fries lovers, better go grab one fast as it is out only limited time =D

And Sundae topping has a new flavor.. Kellogg's Cornflakes.. Also available in Mcflurry..

*haha.. it becomes a advertisment post pulak.. -.-*

Anyway, thanks for reading! =DD

Sunday, September 2, 2012


Ditched my blog for the nth time and I make my come back with this random post.. xD

A lot has happened since my last post, which was in.... errr... February? haha..

With final exams for the last sem, and starting of the new sem, followed by boyfie's back from Taiwan for summer holidays and now back to Taiwan already. Time flies.

So fast, 2012 is going to end soon without us noticing.. And all my close friends had their birthday passed already, which means MY birthday is around the corner!


I don't wanna be 22!! *throws tantrum*
But life goes on anyway....

Joined my uni's choir just to make some friends and pass time.. Found out I really enjoyed singing and playing important role although performing in a big group. As choir needs everybody to sound in their correct note although the sound will be coming out in a blend and it is very very important to blend your voice in your own group before blending it in a big group to make the song sound good.

30th August was my uni's choir 1st concert debut, and I am proud to be in it. Feedback was awesome as we received praises from family and friends, we were trilled!
A big group photo after the performance =D
Oh ya.. our performance is aided by our uni's ensemble.. and they were really good too.. actually I thought of joining ensemble before decided on choir, but too bad as they needed pianist and I'm only good in organ. It's a total different thing -- organ and piano.

Some random pics coming up....
I look damn fat in it T_T

This guy is cute! And I din realise he did this pose  xD

Bestie! We are together wherever we go =D

She's a CIMP lecturer and she's a performer! =D

Bestie and the talkative+humorous William =)
everybody busy taking group photos

the extreme right is the ensemble intructor which took our choir instructor place
Our choir instructor had a show which her opening night was the same day as our performance so she couldn't make it. The ensemble instructor was very kind and took over instructing us on our parts. He was the super humorous guy which I enjoyed every moment when he's around. He can just make us laugh like nobody's business xD

Now is my mid sem break, and I made up my mind not to study anything for the break.. =p
So now I'm into my unfinished novel -- Abhorsen, by the author Garth Nix. 

I just love the cover of the book

It is actually a Trilogy and this is the last book.

And so, I ended this long-winded catch-up blog with all recent updates I could remember.
Just cross your fingers I don't get lazy and update very soon.. =D

Good day everyone and Happy Sunday!

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Nano Block -- My New Toy

Today I went to Popular bookstore to hunt for some things to spend my rm100 voucher..
Another rm100 has been used to buy textbook (see I'm such a good student xD)..
Then left this rm100, and I have no idea what to buy..
Actually I was pondering whether to buy the The Hunter Game Trilogy or not..
But after reading the synopsis, it doesn't really attract me that much..
So I wandered somemore in search for other things..
After wandering for nearly an hour, I gave up finding books already, cuz I don't really have time reading them all yet.. ><
Then I come across Westlife recent album -- which is also their last album..
I didn't have the chance to buy it yet, and so I took it..
I have around rm50+ more to spend, that was when I saw it..


They are mini version of Lego..
And I found the ones that I like -- an electric keyboard and an electric guitar..
When I reach home, I started putting those blocks together..
It is very easy to do..
It took me about 40mins to finish those 2 blocks..
Am so proud of my work =D

And so... Here goes my rm100 voucher.. xD

Electric Guitar
Electric Keyboard

Teehee... xD

Wednesday, March 7, 2012


还有...想逃lecture的心情又再次涌上心头了 *猛摇头...不可以!不可以!*

在此向我的好姐妹赔罪 *鞠躬*
但我知道你不会介意的 =P
被barred的原因,原来我这学期还的sem fee只还了3个科目..
一个email也可以send过来吧,不是很困难罢了.. /_\


在学校,很有动力做功课 =D

这个是新鲜出炉的 xD 今天上完课拍了一张 
因为它会把我拍到美美的 ^////^

发觉我的group members都很有料哦~

Friday, February 24, 2012

My Existence

Throughout the years, I felt that my world is shrinking in a very alarming state..
Friends around me are getting lesser and lesser, from secondary school, to my pre-u years and now degree..
Is my existence fading? Am I a Torch which is burning weaker and weaker each day?
Pardon my last question.. It's just an impact of watching too much Shakugan No Shana.. xD
Those people who watched that anime should know what the heck this author is trying to implement here.. xD

Okay, back to topic..
In my secondary years, I don't have the problem of getting friends.. People just come and talk to me so naturally.. I have loads and loads of friends and I was a happy kid back then..
In my pre-u years, I still can find a gang of girls to hang out with, and the gang of the musical group..
I did had fun those 2 years..
Then, as I step into my degree years...
People just seem so unfriendly.. Or is it just me?
I can't seem to approach anybody, I can't seem to make friends..
Now, in my 2nd year already, my friend list is still ZERO!
What the heck have I done the past year?
Sitting in the lecture hall alone sucks..
Can't anyone see that I am Lonely? Or my EXISTENCE is just sooooooo tiny that no one actually know that I existed...
I have an urge to stick neon lights all over me and walk into the lecture hall, to show my dear fellow coursemates
>> This girl here is deprived of friends, please be her friend? <<

Or do I look too scary to be with? Do I look that unfriendly?

Com'on now guys...
Can I be your friend? =(

Monday, February 20, 2012


本小姐很有心情的打扮了自己.. xD
 Me & Esther 
你们说,是不是超没有心情的...? 哈哈~
今天上完自己的课,就轮到我的姐妹--Esther 上课..
Esther 2pm要去找一个教授,2.30pm有另一堂课..
最近在facebook,很多人玩起一个app -- 拍一堆照片形成一个形状,比如一个love shape..
这个是iPhone app来的,但是不知道Android有没有..
它的名字是Body Symbol..
只有心形是最简单..难怪很多人都做.. 哈哈 xD



Model当然是我的靓姐妹咯.. 反正她说过她也想拍的 =p