孤单

看来...
我孤单的感受又回来了...
虽然不讨厌，但是有时候很是自欺欺人～
不讨厌，但看到其他人那么要好，心里还是不仅酸酸的....

我的housemate们～
除了我有6个，4个看来蛮要好的...
我因为时常工作，回来时都超过10点了...
出去时，也是碰不到～
搞到现在，他们看到我，最多也只是个打招呼罢了...

昨天回去时，看到他们4个在客厅谈天...
很起劲...自己也不知道怎么插一脚...
当时工作回来，也很累了，加上想着考试的来临，根本也没mood去跟他们哈拉...

我一直想....
等过两个月吧..两个月后，我就没做工了，就有多点时间...
那时...我是否能和他们相处呢？
我希望是可以....
我不希望自己被人家看着是那种不友善，是个loner的人...

我.....
其实很爱朋友，很爱人群，很爱热闹..
虽然事实的我，不知道如何达到这个心愿...

*叹气.....*

Comments

  1. ♔StarFuit♔November 5, 2011 at 1:39 AM

    你一定会加入她们的！:)
    你人本来就健谈，可爱！全部人都记得你啊！:*

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  2. stephmisakiNovember 5, 2011 at 9:54 AM

    问题是我给的first impression不好了..
    有点难咯...
    但我会尽力 :)

    ReplyDelete

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