复杂的心思

今天整天其实心情很不错的...
但刚才一刹那，心情突然360度转变...
现在是处于很不开心，很寂寞的心情..
找不到原因，因此更加郁闷...

突然好不想要做工...
明天已经打算不做了..
随便找个理由吧，反正他们也都一样，不是么？
一直乖乖守规矩，很吃亏呢....
反正也只是个part-time...
也幸好没有一个那里的员工知道我部格的存在，所以我可以很放心地写...

之前打算做到一月底...
之后开始很不开心这工作，开始提前结束日子..
前几天决定做到12月尾，但是刚才很有冲动做到12月中，就跑人，或者直接做到这个月尾就算了...
原因其一也是因为有点撑不过半工半读...
12月开始的休假班，怕会很压力..
再过几天成绩出炉的担心，更是压缩了要半工半读的心情..
很怕自己做不好..
我不想有fail..
因为一fail，就要拖半年的学业，我不想...
祈祷我的account不fail (祈祷....祈祷....)
我承认，我没好好去准备它..
我承认是我的错..
但后悔莫及，都考出来了...
只求上天对我好一些吧...

还有重要的是，我想要一个完整的假期..
完整地，我可以轻轻松松做想做的事，娱乐，和朋友相处...

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